One Dream Away From Changing The World

What was I doing? What did I want to do with my life? …why did I study what I study? I had lost the inspiration… The fire inside that keeps you going… All the problems with Christina had put out the inner glow… In ways I grew up faster than I would have otherwise. All our problems overshadowed everything else, it’s no secret that I love her more than life, but truth is that she blinded me. She became my everything, nothing else mattered as long as I had her in my life, and now she’s gone. I doubt I will ever get her back… Jake says he wishes I would realize that lately all she thinks about is herself, and sooner or later she will regret it, because she made a mistake. I never treated her bad after all, but no one can live with being blamed for every little thing in the long run. 

But last night, I remembered why I’m doing this. I remember what sparked my interest, I remember why I wanted to study English and the American culture. And it’s all because of one single person, going back to when I was working full-time in a supermarket. She was a regular customer and you get to know these people that stop by every day, and she asked me; “But what do you want to do with your life? This isn’t the place to stay forever.” I told her I always liked languages and cultures… But I wanted something creative at the same time. She looked at me and told me a story about her husband, about his career. Every two months or so, he would travel to the United States for a week or two, have meetings, meet the people there, educate for “Build-A-Bear” - An amazing company when viewed through marketing studying eyes. They give the children a wonderful experience and a product and I find that incredibly fascinating that you give the customer more than just a finished product, you involve them, give them an experience, a story and a joy and pride, like when the kids tell each other “Look what I made!”. I want to be a part of something like that. Maybe not “Build-A-Bear” but possibly Lego or something of the like. I would get to travel to the States like I always dreamed of, meet the people there, and still get to go back to my home country, my family and friends, and in the end of the day think of that somehow my decisions will affect kids in a positive way. It’s a shame that kids do not get more involved in the processes than they do, stimulate their minds! They’re young, creative and they have the craziest minds, why not use it for something cool? I feel like I’m finally getting back on track, I remember why I want to do this. I might be without the woman I love, but the fire in my heart is starting to glow again, because I think I have found my inspiration back. Nothing will hold me down now, nothing will blind me… Eyes on the goal and focus!